I had a post all written up about the transition from the IF world to the non-IF world, but that post shall have to wait. I have something that is just really pissing me off and has been frustrating me all day. This post might be long. 10 Golden Stars to you if you read to the end.

Yesterday I had another routine OB appointment. Took my weight (up 4 pounds) and bp (high as always) before taking me back to the exam room. I proceeded to wait AN. HOUR. in the exam room for my doctor. No worries though, because I had brought my trusty Kind.le with me and I was reading away. The doctor finally comes in and we begin our usual chat. He asks if I have had any symptoms from this long list, which I can honestly answer no to. He then asks if I have any questions.

Well, yes, yes I do. I asked if my bp meds could be upped. I'm currently on the lowest dosage given of the mildest medication. You literally can not take less blood pressure medication than I currently am. My doctor's response was at this time, he sees no need to up it. Until I'm consistently having readings of 160/110, he doesn't want to add any more meds because the peeps currently "have enough to work against." Okay, fair, I can respect that. I did ask him about possibly upping it in the future and he said we could if the time and need came. Cool beans.

I then asked if he was going to measure my cervix.

Shit, son.

Before I elaborate, let me back up. At my very. first. appointment with him I asked him when he was going to start measuring my cervix. He hmmed and hawwed, but eventually said 16 weeks. Good enough, I though. At my last appointment? He didn't measure it and I forgot to ask. so 16 weeks came and went. 17 weeks came and went. 18 week appointment was finally here and I could ask!

He once again hmmmed around before finally saying "Who told you about this anyway?" I told him I had done my research and that I knew how important cervical length was and how fast it could change. His response? "I'm not going to measure it because what are we going to do if it is shortening, anyway?"

Oh, no he didn't.

I then explained that I am still working full time and that I would stop working immediately and go on self-imposed strict bedrest if my cervix was shortening or funneling. I've done my research. I know at this point in the game a cerclage can do more harm than good, causing pre-term contractions and eventually preterm delivery. And with triplets, if you are really going to dialate, your cervix will just rip through a cerclage anyway. I know that. But self-imposed bedrest? How can that hurt a situation? His response was "Well why don't you quit working right now then?" Uh, because you see, Dr. Pissmeoff, as soon as I go off of work I don't get another paycheck until SEPTEMBER FREAKIN' 20TH. (Summers off, I love you, but you are going to screw me this year) Call me crazy but I would like to work as long as possible, within reason, so that I can get paid as long as possible.

So I again ask if I could get it measure yesterday, even if it wouldn't change his plan of action, if for no other reason than my own piece of mind. His reponse "Uh, no, I won't do that."

Wait. TWAT? He won't do that? 18 and a half weeks with triplets and you won't perform a perfectly normal exam that a patient is requesting?

If you made it this far, I'm putting 10 gold stars next to your name on my wall. For serious..... And this story isn't over. More tonight.